now/here

something

has got to change.
It's the truth.
and not all the chocolate, yoga, tears, or laughter in the world is going to change that, or the way I feel at the end of the day.
It's on me, now.
Heart, mind, expectations
Racing.
Dreams, past, future
Chasing.
I can't feel this way anymore.
Goddamnitdamnitdamnit.
I promised myself I'd never let it get this far.
I'll know better than to trust me next time.

Live today.
Love yourself.
It's never as easy.

this is me choosing to be happy.